This color is showing sort of a 'pain'. But it's very deep, unspoken and unrecognized. Something you're just 'tolerating' and allowing to be there, accepting it as 'normal'. And this pain is the feeling that you're actually just not happy. You're not happy with anything. And there's nothing that could make you happy. It's almost like a grumpiness. A sort of deep inner grumpiness. Something that cannot be satisfied or made content. It's just always there, no matter what you do. Just always a feeling way in the back of your mind that whatever you're doing, it is not the happiness you're looking for, and you must do something different. Not that there is anything wrong with wanting to do something different, but you may want to have a look at this 'looking for happiness' point. Or rather the 'inner grumpiness' as a personality design. Because, it will tell you a lot about the things within you that are adding a lot of stress in your life. 

The point of 'not finding happiness' is something that in a way 'chases' you and does not allow you to settle and get comfortable inside yourself. So you want to really have a look into what this grumpiness personality consists of. What is the experience of it, where does it come from, what memories are connected with it? Who are you within and as it? Because, obviously it isn't the real you. It's more something you've developed somehow, at some point in your life, and have also come to suppress. So, time to now give it some attention, and give attention to perhaps parts of you that you haven't been entirely wanting to confront and that may make you a bit uncomfortable. It's about looking inward to find out why are you not happy and how/why have you been sabotaging yourself in this pursuit, and so take some of the stress off of the outward looking for it. And do reach out if you need some more support with digging deeper!