This is a very 'serene' color. Like, no reactions and nothing going on. Calm, peaceful, no issues and no problems. Very understanding and gentle and kind. You're not ever going to get angry or upset, but always do your best to be and remain kind and calm and peaceful, and always have the best intentions. At least, that's what's on the outside. What you'll show people. That's not necessarily the real you. In fact on the inside there's a lot more going on than you'll ever show on the outside. But you're just very good at creating the illusion of silence. At hiding everything about yourself. 

Cause you've made this decision within yourself that you won't share yourself with anyone. You just don't trust people, basically. You don't trust that they won't abuse you in some way. You just sort of give people what they need to see, to keep like a smoke screen in between. To keep people from seeing any of the real you. And so they only see what want to see.

You've even become so good at hiding yourself, that's it's even hard for you to see the 'real you'. Almost like that smoke screen has infiltrated you internally and is even hiding you from yourself. Trying to protect you from yourself. From your own abuse. Cause you do also abuse. Just like people do. You've become just like people. Just like everybody else in the world. And so that's why this 'hiding from abuse' doesn't work. Cause everything in this world is abusive. If you grow up in this world, you grow up abusive. And the only way to really deal with abuse, is to face it.

There's no such thing as innocence in this world anymore. Meaning that, nobody is 'innocent'. Nobody can wash their hands clean. If you're here, then you're part of the abuse. So the hiding point is almost like your wanting to hold on to a point of 'innocence' within you. Wanting to believe yourself to be innocent. Wanting to be able to blame others, like whatever you're going through is their fault. And as long as you're hiding yourself that's possible, because you're also keeping yourself from seeing anything.

Like you're playing this cat-and-mouse game with yourself, hiding yourself from yourself. Because you're afraid of 'responsibility'. Or rather, afraid of being 'the bad guy'. Afraid of being blamed. Afraid of that white, serene idea that you have of yourself to have a 'blemish' and to be tainted. 

But you're going to have to give up the lie at some point. The illusion of innocence. And start realizing that you're here with everybody else. There's no getting away from it. We're all equally responsible for EVERYTHING that is here. And we're all going to have to walk the same process. So the sooner you start embracing that, the better. Then you can start your process of real innocence. The process of purifying yourself. Which is through taking responsibility for everything and finding ways to change everything. That is innocence made REAL. To not be shy or scared to face all the 'bad', so you can find a way through. To get your hands dirty and really SEE everything, inside and out. 

That's the only way to walk this process. Brutal self-honesty. Being brutally honest with yourself about everything that exists inside of you. And applying self-forgiveness on everything, until there's nothing left. Until you are 'purified'. Free from thoughts, feelings and emotions. So understand, that none of it is 'bad'. None of what you see in this world and within yourself is 'bad'. It's just stuff that's been accepted and allowed. Stuff we've never taken responsibility for, because we believed that 'responsibility' stands equal to 'being the bad guy'. While all that it means is to recognize your ability to change things. Where, nobody's to blame, yet we're all responsible because we're all here and we're all capable of changing what is here.

Same with self-forgiveness. Doesn't mean we did anything 'wrong'. That's another illusion. We for-give ourselves because we have the ability to give ourselves back to ourselves. To change what's been accepted and allowed.

So that's just some points to consider. So you don't end up working against yourself or sabotaging yourself in your process. Just some mind-dimensions there to look out for. So, not anything 'bad' lol. Just something to see, forgive and change :)

This color reminds very much of a 'school teacher' lol. In terms of being very 'guiding' and 'instructive'. And almost like a point of 'I know it better'. Like, 'listen to me children, I know better!' And also not really wanting to listen to anything else. Not being very 'open' to receive information but more sort of boarding yourself up within this belief of 'I know better/best'. Wherein you've placed yourself in a position of 'teaching/instructing others'. Like thinking you're 'done' learning and it's now up to you to teach others.

So you should ask yourself, 'what is it about learning that I am resisting?' Look into what kind of 'trauma' made you decide that you don't need or want to learn anymore? And what is it that makes you be afraid of accessing your 'inner child', as that part of you that is open to learn and be instructed and guided? Cause there's is a pain there that you're avoiding to look at. The things that have been done onto you when you were a child, and you were trying to learn, and that openness and vulnerability was abused and taken for granted. And those around you that were supposed to teach you were insensitive to what you needed to learn effectively.

And so you learned to create this sort of outer shell of 'I'm not learning anything anymore', to protect yourself against what you felt was abuse being done to you. To protect yourself against 'learning'. 

So it's interesting, this dynamic of how a resistance to learning will cause one to become a 'teacher' and want to 'teach'. And that teachers are thus in a way the ones who least of all know what it means to learn. And who are thus least of all equipped to teach, guide or instruct children, as they will more just end up transferring the abuse that's been done to them as a child. After all, how can you possibly teach another when you don't even know how to learn. A teacher is supposed to be the one to show how to learn. So it's not really about the information that is being transferred but more about having the skill and the sensitivity to see what is needed on an individual level, as in seeing how each person is unique in how they absorb and process information. And being able to adapt yourself to that uniqueness to give each one the support they really need.

So it's to step out of that 'teacher role', and start with just getting to know people. To not assume that you know what people need, but more open yourself up to what you don't yet know. Which is what it means to learn. And what it also really means to teach. Being curious about who people really are, and having a genuine interest in getting to know people, to find out what they really need and what would support them the most in their life. And in so doing you're also supporting yourself to learn about reality. And so the teacher becomes the student and the student becomes the teacher :)

This is quite a caring and understanding color. It's kind of like the 'teacher' color, but just with a lot more 'passion'. With a lot of care for people. And a genuine concern and want to get to know them. It's like the solution to the problem within the other color. There's still that confidence and guidance and directness, just coming from a starting point that is a lot more 'inclusive' and considerate. Like, you're still directing and guiding and instructing people, BUT the major difference is that there is that willingness to learn about who people are. There is a real passion to get to know them.

So it's basically the opposite of that 'I'm done learning' point. This is more like, 'yes please, I want to get to know everyone!' It's like you're wide open to the world and you just want to get better acquainted with everything and everyone. Almost like you want to get inside people lol, and get to know and learn about every nook and cranny and every part and particle of people. Because there's just such a care in this color. A care to do what's best for people. And so you don't want to miss or overlook anything. It's like you want to really get to know people in such a way that you live and breathe them, that you stand into their shoes and see exactly what they need.

So this is just a point to realize, that you can still be a 'teacher' and still guide and direct, BUT that your learning of who people are has to come first. That you have to cultivate your 'care' first. Your LIVING care. In terms of placing yourself in another person's shoes and seeing things through their eyes. And really being passionate about doing onto another what you'd like to be done onto if you were them. And so find that passion for learning again. Rather than associating learning with (emotional) pain. Cause you can't do what's best for someone if you're not willing to understand who they are.

So that's essentially the 'alignment' to make here. To make sure that more of you goes towards learning and that the 'teaching' is more a natural expression that comes naturally from the point of care. So your point here is learning how to care, or learning what real care is, as a living word. And with that obviously also learning what care is for yourself. Cause that's something you've also been lacking. So CARE is the key-word here. An important word for you to look into, as it's what's specifically standing out with this color and the green one. To really explore this word and see what it means to you, how you've been living and defining it and what would be best, as in care as a living word. And do go for a Support Color reading if you'd like some extra support or if you don't know where to start with opening up and working with this word. And with just looking into what care might be as a living word. Although I'm sure you'll do just fine :)