This color feels very 'cold'. Like being in a cold dark cave and you're trying to figure out how to survive. And you're making decisions based on survival. It's like an 'alertness' and cautiousness, where your awareness is existing on that very superficial level of survival, and you're very much concerned and worried about survival. So within that, you're not really letting yourself be 'creative'. Not letting your creative juices flow. Cause all your energy is going to looking out for survival.

I mean obviously survival is your first priority. But this is more a 'personality' of concern and worry. Something you're in, regardless of whether your survival is already taken care of or not. It's a very 'caveman' type programming lol. Like your job is to sit outside of your cave with a torch, to stand guard and safeguard your habitat. And that is your only purpose and task in life. To just be in constant 'protection-and-defense'-mode. Like a caveman. 

And that's the survival mind. It's still that primitive programming even though we don't necessarily exist in those 'prehistoric times' anymore. We still act and think and feel as though we do. As if we must constantly be 'on guard' and on the lookout for threats and predators. As if we can't relax and just trust and enjoy and express ourselves. Our brain is hot-wired to be extremely survival-based and -oriented. Like a constant state of stress. 

And it's certainly hard to be 'creative' or 'expressive' in that state. Because to be creative and expressive you have to to a degree relax and be willing to let go. In fact you have to deliberately push yourself to let go, beyond what you yourself believe you can't go. You have to find the point, the opening, the possibility and potential. Because if you don't, no one will. Because, you're the artist. And throughout time, artists have always been the ones to sort of pave the road for humanity, through their influence and inspiration and showing of what they themselves have seen and realized.

To be an artist is a very difficult task, because you're the one who has to push the boundaries and be the one to show that there's a way through and there's another way. You have to run ahead of everyone and trust yourself in going where no one has gone before. You have to be brave and take risks and break through the walls of perceived limitation, within and for yourself, and so within and for humanity. That's your job as an artist. Your 'life-purpose' so to speak. To break through what seems impossible to break through. Like the 'survival-mind'. Shedding the caveman programming and stepping into creative expression. Proving that there is a way. And then letting your art tell the story, to inspire humanity onto a different course. Or in a way like the pied piper, leading humanity out of their dark cave and into their potential. Using your music to influence and inspire and motivate. Just like you've inspired yourself. Leading humanity equally to how you've led yourself.

So the artist's journey is a tough and challenging one, but it's certainly an inspirational journey, and an impressive one. One with a lot of responsibility. It's like you're having to dig the tunnel to help humanity escape from the prison of the mind. And you're going to face a lot of rocks, a lot of material that you believe you can't get through. The perceptions of limitation. Where you have to be the one to find a way through. To break through even when things seem impossible. But you will see and find amazing things. And the further you push yourself within yourself, the deeper your art will become. And the more you will have to show humanity. So honor your purpose as an artist as a pioneer for humanity and life, you will assist many beings. And you'll make a big difference. It'll be tough but fulfilling.