It's black! What an exciting color! Lol that may not be the initial response to black, BUT it's actually the most exciting color of them all! Black could be anything. There is a depth of possibility and potential in black. And that's what makes it exciting. There's no limitation, anything is possible.

It's almost this point of 'you can't tell me what to do!' lol. As in, you can't tell me what is possible and what isn't. Or what the rules are that I must live by. Because this black color is clearly showing that there are no 'rules'. That creation is yours. That you don't need to listen to anything or anyone telling you what life is supposedly all about. Make up your own rules! You don't owe anybody anything and nobody ows you anything. So design life according to what makes sense to you. Tap into yourself and design your own path.

It's about realizing your own ability to be the master of your existence, and shedding what you BELIEVE to be 'life'. About going beyond the accepted version of reality and realizing that you're so much more than that. You can be and do so much more than you give yourself credit for. You just need to sort of 'believe in yourself'. And start recognizing that you're also the one who is selling yourself short. You're deciding to do that. To limit and suppress your potential. To be 'shy'. So stop that bullshit lol. There's no excuse for that. In fact it's your responsibility, you owe it to yourself to be better than that. Because a part of you knows that you are.

Time to get 'hands-on' with your potential. Because who are you waiting for anyways? You're waiting for yourself to finally get moving. Nobody's going to tap on your proverbial door to say, 'hey, can Kirill come out and play?' Shyness is like one of the biggest illusions in history. This whole point of 'no, I'll only come out when I'm asked.' like, why accept such a limitation?

You want to be the one to knock on others' doors and ask them if they want to come out and play. Don't just accept shyness as who you are. It's not you. But you don't entirely want to let it go lol. It's like your safety net or comfort zone. It's a deliberate thing. You're scared of expression. Scared of the world. Scared of a lot of things. So it's like, you know all this, but just this fear has always gotten in the way.

So, what? You're going to let fear dictate you? I mean sure there's fear. But have you ever asked yourself what all that fear is about? Why does the mind want you to exist in so much fear? Not because it's really you and not because it's reality. But because there's something about your expression that may just support beings. So from the mind's perspective, that needs to be suppressed. So it will supercharge you with fear, to sabotage your expression. To make your being believe that it doesn't have the ability to express itself.

 But fear is actually something so stupid. It creates this illusion of being in the dark, and being lost, and like you're stumbling around and you don't know what you're doing. But you actually do, you just need to sort of find your common sense. Fear creates like this big black hole that you're staring into, and you don't realize that reality is here. Reality is not a big black hole lol. Reality is not so scary. Reality is something that can be managed, and understood. But you need your common sense. Common sense is like you supporting yourself to see what's real and what's not. Not just listening to emotions like fear, but actually questioning things, and directing things. Becoming the directive principle. Supporting yourself to start seeing that fear isn't real. And that expression isn't actually so scary :)