This color is the color of ‘not giving resistance’. Being very ‘understanding’, in terms of not being quick to judge or react, but more sort of just watching things and allowing things to unfold and happen without you necessarily interfering or giving your own opinions or reactions. It’s like allowing things to go through you unconditionally, within a point of understanding that at the end of the day your reactions don’t really matter anyways. That however you react to a person or a situation is not going to help or support that person or situation. It’s to have a firm understanding that what people really need is often just someone who unconditionally listens. Someone who doesn’t react. Someone who doesn’t give their own opinions. Someone who is just ‘there’ for them to ‘unload’ their troubles. Which is essentially living the principle of giving as you would like to receive.

You would also like to be able to express yourself without other people reacting and somehow interfering with your expression with their own reactions. You would also like to enjoy and experience the freedom to express who you are without having to be afraid or worry about how people may react. And you would also like to be able to talk to someone who unconditionally listens. So it’s to give that to others: what you would like to receive for yourself. A sense of peace and calm and relaxation. A place where people can feel like they can be themselves and they can relax. And that is quite precious and rare in this world. Because overall, we always feel like we have to ‘brace ourselves’ against other people’s reactions. Like we can’t ever truly relax and like we must watch our back and protect ourselves against other people’s minds. It’s not very often that we get this kind of ‘understanding’ where we know we can unconditionally be ourselves and we will not be judged or reacted to. We will not be met with resistance. And we don’t need to worry even about the other person at all.

It’s almost like creating this ‘safe space’, or like a ‘cocoon’ within yourself when it comes to people. As in, creating in a way a separation inside yourself. In terms of just realizing that all people really want is some ‘peace’. So you have to be able to ‘separate’ yourself from the idea or belief that you have to give people something. You don’t have to give people anything. Meaning that you don’t need to worry about ‘who you are’ in relation to people necessarily. You just have to ‘be there’ for them. Just a listening ear, that doesn’t react or judge. Cause people don’t really care about who you are anyways, to be frank. People just care about what they’re looking for, for themselves. Which is a sense of peace, and being able to relax. So really, all you need to do, is just not react to people. And sort of just let people express whatever it is they want or need to express. They don’t really care about ‘how’ you react necessarily, they just want to not have to worry about your reactions lol.

So that is just a bit of ‘wisdom’ to integrate. That people don’t care about you lol. Not in a bad way, but just in the sense of, really you can stop worrying about what you think people expect from you or who and how you believe you should be. You’re putting way too much thought into people and you’re not realizing that people don’t even really care necessarily if you’re ‘nice’ to them, or ‘understanding’ or how much effort you put into being considerate. Because the truth is that people are way too busy dealing with their own issues and problems in their own mind to even notice. So you can just relax. And the only thing you need to ‘worry’ about in relation to people, is to just not react. And you’ll be giving people everything that they’re really looking for. Just someone who doesn’t react to them. To feel like they can be unconditionally themselves. Cause isn’t that just what we’re all looking for at the end of the day? Such a simple point, but life is often about the simple things ;)

 

 

 

In this color is a point of being 'pissed off'. But in a way that is suppressed, so you're not even really aware of it. It's like this undercurrent of frustration. But it's sort of hiding behind 'understanding'. As in, to your environment you're quite 'understanding'. You don't let the anger come out and you don't let yourself take it out on others. But that doesn't take away that it's still there and still something you're dealing with inside yourself.

I mean it's cool that you're not showing it in a way, as a point of respect and consideration for others. But it's important for you to also be honest about it with yourself, so that you don't end up just hiding yourself and accepting that as who you are. Meaning, accepting that on the inside you're dealing with unresolved issues - issues that need some attention. While it's very nice of you to not let your emotions influence those around you, you need to also take care of yourself and be nice to yourself by getting to the root of those emotions so you can resolve them. You're not really doing anyone a favor by suppressing yourself, even though it feels like you are. 

You can be as nice as you want and have the best intentions, at the end of the day what really influences reality is what you accept inside yourself. And if you want to care for reality, you need to take care of your inner self. You need to look at the things you're suppressing, and start being honest with yourself about what's really going on within you. And instead of focusing more on who you are in relation to others, you should focus more on who you are inside of yourself. Start figuring out how to be as nice to yourself as you are to other people.

Cause you've in a way abandoned your relationship with yourself. In terms of just not paying much attention to what's inside. And that's also what this anger is about. It's an anger at how much you ignore yourself. Cause you've decided on some level inside yourself that you don't matter as much as other people do. You've made yourself really 'small', in terms of not realizing that you matter just like everyone else. That you shouldn't have to be suppressing yourself and placing others before yourself. I mean no one should be treated that way. So why treat yourself that way? You wouldn't treat someone else that way, so why yourself? No wonder you're angry.

You're angry at yourself, going 'hey! What are you doing?! Stop treating me like I don't matter! I'm here too you know?!! You better pay attention!' And be more understanding of yourself. And recognize that anger shows that there is an 'issue' that needs attention. That if you see anger inside yourself, that means you need to pay attention to yourself inside. It means you're 'unhappy' about something, and it's your job to find out what that is and resolve the issue. Out of care for yourself. It's your job to turn to yourself and say 'hey, what's the matter? How come you're upset?'

Take the anger as an alarm going off inside yourself that you need to look inward. Cause there's a part of you that's going 'ouweee!!' A part of you that's in (emotional) pain and that's hurting somehow. So then ask yourself, 'why am I upset?', and find the source of the anger. Show yourself that you care and that in itself will already make a big difference. Cause at the end of the day that's all you really want from yourself, and that's most of what your anger is really about. Just a little bit of attention from yourself :)

What's coming through in this color is an insecurity about 'who you are'. A deep insecurity, of not being certain of who you are. And almost being in conflict or at war within yourself because you just don't know who you are and that's causing you to just feel all sorts of unsettled, and to feel as though you're 'all over the place'. 

Cause you believe that you need to find an answer to this question 'who am I?' But you just can't seem to come to a solid answer. And so you're looking and looking but kind of becoming more and more desperate because anywhere you look, the answer isn't there. But you feel like it's your mission to keep looking. Like it's really important that you find the answer to this question.

But what you're not seeing is how actually the more you're looking and sort of going into yourself in search for the answer, the deeper you're digging this hole inside yourself and the more you're moving away from the answer, which is already right here. 

It's this programming in the mind that works kind of like a spiral, wherein you believe that you're on a path towards something while you're actually just digging yourself and spiralling deeper into the mind. Cause the mind is clever like that. It's got numerous programs like that, to keep you away from just being 'here'. To keep you distracted.

And the way to sort of uproot this kind of programming, is to find the point of fear that it's based on. What is finding an answer to the question 'who am I?' going to help you with? What's the feeling that you're really looking for?

It's like you have this extensive fear of being 'insignificant'. Of not meaning anything. You're afraid that your life doesn't mean anything. So I suppose you're looking for the 'meaning of life'. And oh boy does the mind ever have fun with that question. The elusive 'meaning of life'. As if it's a thing that actually exists. It's more an excuse for the mind to generate a whole bunch of thoughts and energy. 

The meaning of life is more just the physical. The meaning of life is in a way the simplest point that exists. That's where 'you' are. Within the simplicity of breath. But the mind always makes 'meaning' out to seem like something that's a 'big deal'. Something you need to 'look for'. Some apparent hidden secret you need to find. 

You want to actually get to the 'smallest' point. Rather than looking for meaning, there should be no meaning. As in, no thoughts in the mind. No 'adding' meaning to the reality that's simply here. You need to basically be ok with nothing happening. Not 'meaning' anything. You need to be ok with the simple things, and realize that the meaning of life exists within the simple things. It's not something you need to look for. It's already here. Just need to sort of be content with how and what things are.