This color is basically saying to give more attention to yourself. That you have a tendency to 'spread yourself thin', and worry about the things you believe you 'have to do', rather than actually doing what is best for you. You're not very used to taking care of yourself and listening to yourself and how you really feel and what you really need. So, allow yourself to feel what you're really going through inside. Get in touch with your emotions and the depth of how you feel.

In a way you feel like you can't handle things because you aren't placing yourself first. Because you are giving attention to everything else, but yourself. You aren't recognizing your own importance and aren't realizing that if you don't recognize your importance and pay attention to you, then no one will. 

So you have to make a commitment with yourself, to place yourself first, to do what's best for you, to give yourself the attention you need and to take proper care of yourself. And it'll be tough because you have never done this before. So you need to also recognize what it's going to take to make this commitment with yourself. 

You need to be honest with yourself about the 'severity' of the situation. With the fact that there are many, many ways in which you have not been doing what is best for you. Many ways in which you tend to not listen to yourself and your actual needs, and in which you do not place yourself first. You have to sort of look at it as a 'project'. And any project can only be successful when you have a realistic grasp on what you're working with, and on what it will take to be successful. 

To first and foremost be 'brutally honest' with yourself about how difficult it will be for you to change things around. Simply because of how used you are to placing yourself second, or last, and placing everything else before yourself. You're so used to ignoring yourself. So it's going to be like building a house from scratch. But as long as you're honest with yourself, you can do it.

And you will find that when you've built this 'house of self', through placing yourself first and giving your focus and attention to yourself and taking care of yourself in every moment, that you will be able to 'withstand' anything. That you will be STRONG. Now you actually feel quite 'fragile' inside yourself, and unable to properly handle things, because you don't realize that strength comes from the inside. It comes from you being there for yourself and realizing that you are important first and foremost, no matter what, and everything else comes second. Strength is the house that you build inside yourself made up of your care and attention for yourself. And that's something that no one can take away.

So allow yourself to breathe for a moment, and let go of everything. And just establish a connection with yourself. Check in with yourself, and what you're going through. Allow yourself to feel and embrace what's really there. Allow yourself to cry if you have to. And hold yourself, as a reminder to yourself that you're here for you, and that you're going to be supporting yourself and doing whatever you have to do to do what is best for you. 

That is your starting point. That connection with yourself is where everything else you do should start from. To, no matter what comes into your mind, in terms of your thoughts and emotions with regards to what you 'have to do', always bring the focus back to who you are inside - and then move yourself from there. To always keep bringing the focus back to 'you'. To the simplicity of your body, of your breathing, and of how you really feel inside. Not adding more stress and pressure through thinking. Because it's within 'thinking' that you suppress yourself and place all these 'other things' before yourself. Other things that are apparently 'more important' than you. Other things that you can actually also do without thinking. You can still do all those things while placing yourself first and focusing on yourself. 

So just make sure that you're not busy worrying about things. That you're not letting the things in your life 'get to you'. They're just things that you do, at the end of the day. Just things that you do because you're in this world, and because you have to survive in this world. That's all. You are much more, and much more important than 'survival'. So just remember that, and keep reminding yourself of that, until you know it to be true. And until you stop placing anything else before yourself.