There is a 'wisdom' in this color. Or more a 'maturity' actually. The maturity of being 'still' inside. Of, even though you may participate in this world with all its 'entertainment' and 'distractions', not allowing it to at the end of the day really affect you on an internal level. But rather remembering your 'responsibility' as a being to remain standing and 'firm' inside yourself. Kind of like an adult or a parent who just cannot 'afford' to be influenced by distractions and entertainment because they have a responsibility. They have to be the stable one. The one who gives direction and who is always aware. 

And there are many 'temptations' in this world and reality. Many points where you WANT to 'give in' and be influenced. Where you want to be the 'child' in a way, who has no responsibilities and can just lose themselves in experiences and be swept away, apparently 'without consequences', because they still have their 'innocence'.

So there's like a 'knowing' that 'I SHOULD be responsible' and 'I SHOULD be stable', but there's also a little voice that goes 'but I don't wanna'. Cause you kind of feel like you're 'missing out' on all the temptations that life has to offer. And you're not quite sure if you're entirely ready to give all that up. Give up on living a life seemingly without consequences or responsibility. A life of not being aware of your responsibility. But in a way it's kind of too late for that now lol, cause you're already aware. So there's not really a 'turning back'.

You just can't help the feeling that you're 'missing out' somehow. And that you've had to give something up. Something nice and fun and pleasant and enjoyable. Where you now sort of feel like a child who's had to 'grow up' and give up 'fun' altogether in a way. Like, 'sorry, you're an adult now. No more fun for you'. You only get to watch other people have 'fun' without responsibility or consequences, because they're still blissfully ignorant and unaware.

So, there is nothing 'wrong' with this, first of all. Just see it for what it is. You want to live fun. And that is a valid point. You're just longing for something you feel you've never really had the opportunity to live. So you need to give yourself what it is that you're looking for. Live FUN as a living word. Find out what it really truly means to live the word 'fun'. To BE and BECOME the word FUN. Now that is a whole different ballgame. Because now you're living 'fun' within responsibility. Fun should be something that stands equal with responsibility, not separated from it. Not 'either or'. 

So you want to really take responsibility for this word. Really look into and get into what it means to live 'fun'. And make it part of yourself. That's really what this color is showing. To sort of make yourself whole through exploring this word, so that you can move past this point of 'desire' and 'lack' through simply LIVING it.

So in a way 'you're already there', standing as life. Being open and caring and unconditional and giving. You've already chosen who you are as life. Because you know this is the real you. And because 'standing as life' isn't anything 'more' than this. Than this simple point of 'care'. Than just standing as a living statement that 'I care'. That you will do what you have to do to 'take care' of life, and that you can therefore be trusted with life.

But in a way you've suppressed this part of you because in this world it's not 'cool' to 'care'. To really, genuinely CARE. Even 'care' and how care has been defined and lived in this world is something that's so far removed from real care. So it's almost like, no matter where you go, that point of real genuine care is never honored. It's seen as too 'sensitive' or 'weak' even.

So you have to realize and see for yourself how cool you are. 'Reward' yourself. You have to become the new 'cool'. And sort of stop expecting people to recognize and appreciate who you are inside. In a way people are incapable of seeing, let alone appreciating, that which is truly amazing as LIFE. So you do 'stand alone' in that. To start realizing and seeing how cool 'care' is.

And also realize that 'care' is not actually 'concern'. 'Concern' is in a way how your mind has hijacked the point of 'care', making it something emotional. Something based within fear. Which is just something to look out for, with this color. Where and when you go into the emotion of concern. To then just turn the concern into 'care', which is just more 'relaxed' and not energy-based. And in a way 'concern' is the opposite of care, so that's how the mind would take a genuine beingness expression and have you actually become the reverse of that. 

Cause within concern there is no openness and no unconditionality. And you end up doing only what you believe you need to do, rather than what's actually best and what actually needs to be done, which is often very different. Because 'care' is more filtered through the mind as separation than standing in and as the point of 'life'. And that will then just make the 'care-giver' more 'compromised' than anyone else actually, since 'care' is so defined within feeling and emotional energy. And 'care' becomes in a way the area that is the most devoid of real care in this world, and where genuine care becomes the most compromised. And where people who once believed they 'care' become in fact the most uncaring beings on the planet.

So that is just an interesting dynamic, and perhaps something to watch out for when your 'care' of people becomes something emotionally/feeling charged. To then just unconditionally let go and bring yourself back to the point of 'care' which is to actually more just 'be here', and to place yourself first actually. And realize that within honoring you, you are honoring all of life as you. Cause within and as your beingness, you're already living what is best for life, so place you as your beingness first.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     

Within this color, it feels like you're 'being pushed' to the point where you let go. The way that for example pain in the body pushes you to let go of everything because all you can focus on is the pain. So it's the body 'pushing' you as the being to let go of the mind. So it's a point of 'support' but yes unfortunately, through pain. Where pain is like the body saying 'it's ENOUGH! No more mind!'

So, be grateful. Even though, yes it sucks. Try to embrace it as an opportunity to move through points quicker. And realize that 'everything is specific'. Even these things that are more just consequences that you have to 'deal with'. It's for you to look into how those consequences were created, what's there to learn from, and how you can use the consequences in a constructive, supportive way. To not have it be a 'burden' necessarily, as something that's just coming to 'screw up your life', but rather see it as you as life giving you what you need to let go of what you need to let go of in order to stand up as life.

As well as in a way reminding you to walk your process, or rather of the importance of process, where you work on directing the points that create these kind of consequences, before they actually create the consequences. And where now you can still work with the consequences in a way that sort of gives 'meaning' to it, as just a 'support' for you to start working with points that you would not have normally worked with. Points that are maybe more unconscious and never seemed to be a 'problem', yet clearly did have quite an impact on the physical body and so were actually more 'problematic' than they appeared.

So see it as a 'gateway' to parts that are a bit more difficult to see. To become aware of 'hey, there's something there that I need to start paying attention to'. Cause that's all that pain is. It's you, or a part of you inside yourself that's saying 'pay attention to me!' A part of you that you don't tend to listen to and that has been suppressed and 'neglected'. Cause when there's pain, it's hard to look away from it. It's your body stating, 'you will deal with this point now!' Not giving you a chance to look away or ignore. And kind of like 'tough love'. Saying 'if you will not start directing this point as a self-movement, then I will push you to it'.

It's just those points that have become part of your 'accepted programming' and that are therefore not being questioned. But it's points that are at the same time all the more compromising who you are as a being, so they just need to be looked at. So it's a good thing in a way that you have your body to support you with seeing. To be here with you in your process as your 'physical sidekick'. And yes it's an 'annoying' one lol, but it's not going anywhere so might as well make friends with it.