#iftodaywasacolor

 

This color is interesting because it's like 'passionate' yet 'dispassionate' at the same time. There is like a sudden movement of getting up and being like 'yes, let's do it!' but then also a similar immediate drop of like 'ugh, no I can't'. So there's an intense want to do something, but at the same time also a sense of being unable and almost being stopped dead in your tracks entirely. And I suppose that is how most of us experience ourselves in this world. We do have a passion. It's buried way down deep, but it's in there. There is a 'fiery passion' there to stand up and 'change the world'. But then at the same time there is also 'major disempowerment'. Like just a total 'giving up' of that passion and a passive acceptance that 'there's just no way' and that we're 'simply unable' to do anything at all. And that's creating even a sort of conflict or fight inside of ourselves. A 'friction'. Having that constant subconscious 'up and down' movement of 'yes! But, ugh, I guess not...'. To just feel constantly stifled, anytime we feel a genuine drive and movement and expression to do something. To do something REAL and meaningful. And it's a friction that is like just 'bubbling' and 'boiling' under the surface. Something that's wanting to 'bubble up', like an anger that has just been getting greater and greater. An anger that we, unfortunately, have never known what to do with. So it's also become our greatest disempowerment. But it's actually getting to a point where it's like 'ENOUGH!' A point where we cannot suppress it any longer. A force that's coming from the deep within ourselves that just wants, and needs, to express itself. Because our anger for having suppressed our real passion is immense. I mean we're talking, since the beginning of time that we as beings have never truly expressed ourselves but have more been 'going along with' things we actually know to not be 'good'. So yes, we're ANGRY. But sometimes anger is necessary for an 'expression' to come through. Sometimes anger is all you have and sometimes you just gotta 'let it out', just to become aware that there are problems and issues to be addressed. So we're probably going to start seeing a lot of anger come through within people. Just understand that in a way it's 'necessary', so we might start 'waking up' to the problems and issues in our world.