This color actually came up as sort of a 'pain' within you. So it's interesting, given that this color seems so 'bright'. Where, actually within you, it's more something that's 'paining' you. A 'happiness' that is 'paining' you lol. Because there is a feeling connected to it that you 'have to'. That this 'happiness' is something you 'have to' participate in. And so instead of it being a real, genuine happiness, it actually becomes something that's 'forced'. Something you feel 'imprisoned' in even. Something you feel is keeping you from truly living. Because you're 'supposed to' be 'happy'. You can't just be 'you', whoever 'you' are.

Like, all of 'you' just gets sort of washed away by this happiness that you're supposed to be feeling. And it's such a lie, the 'happiness'. So many people are in the pursuit of it, but you see it for what it really is. A lie. Something that blankets actual reality, and something that doesn't let you be yourself. It almost feels like you're in a prison camp. And you're being told/forced to 'smile' and 'be happy'. And so it becomes a burden. Because you are very aware that you're only doing it cause you've been told to. Not because this 'happiness' is in any way existent in you.

If anything, it just makes you all the more aware of how NOT happy you actually are. It makes you see the 'prison bars' around this 'happiness' clearer. It makes you more aware of your PAIN in which you are crying out for the freedom to be yourself. It makes you want to retaliate. Be a 'rebel' against happiness in a way. A rebel against these sort of 'positive lies'. It makes you extra vigilant and cautious when it comes to anything that's generally perceived as something 'positive'. Cause there's nothing like being told to 'be happy' that just takes the 'happiness' right out of everything, and makes you just not trust any of it. In fact it's generally those people who are 'happy' because they believe they 'should be' who are the most miserable of all, deep down.

And really, it's about time that we started breaking down and deconstructing these 'positive illusions' that we've been and are still accepting. These ideas of 'happiness' that's more like a prison that we hold ourselves in to cover up and hide the PAIN that we really feel inside. Time we start getting real with ourselves, and start seeing through our own bullshit. And realize that things are actually quite the reverse from how they appear.

So in a way you are here to assist and support beings and humanity to start seeing that 'happiness' is a lie. Because you know what it's like. You've been there, and you can see right through it. Whereas humanity in general is still pretty lost in the illusion. And they need to come down to earth, and start seeing what things really are. And this point of 'seeing through the illusions' is in a way your area of expertise. You're actually pretty down-to-earth as a being, and you have a 'caring heart', to assist and support people in a significant way. A 'soldier of life', here to help out when and wherever you can.

This color is like a very genuine part of you. There's this purity to it. A well-meaningness, and a sincerity. A part of you that is 'preserved' in a way. A part of your 'innocence' and 'purity' as a being. And it's something you actually draw a lot of strength from. It's like something you always 'touch-base' with. Something you return to, to know 'who you are'. There to remind you that at the end of the day, who you really are is innocent and pure.

You may sometimes get lost and 'lose your way' in the mind, but it's always there as a reminder of the 'real you'. The you that you know you really are, no matter what happens and no matter how much you seem to be 'lost' in things within your mind. And yes, sometimes it's hard to see it. To see your innocence and purity. Sometimes you feel as though you've truly lost it. Where you just can't see beyond the experience you're in and you feel like you'll never get out of it. Like that's just the 'real you'. And yes, the mind can be convincing like that. It makes you believe that you're anything BUT 'innocent' and 'pure'. That any 'innocence' or 'purity' you ever saw in yourself was just an illusion, and that the 'real you' is quite the opposite of that.

Yes the mind is very good at creating 'experiences'. But even within believing/experiencing yourself to be NOT 'pure' and 'innocent', there is a purity.  The purity of being real with yourself about how you really experience yourself. The purity of being honest with yourself. Of being 'true' to what's really going on. That's real purity. And that is a purity that you are truly living, in every moment. A real living word 'purity'.

So if you ever find yourself doubting your 'purity', just ask yourself: 'am I being real with myself about what I'm going through? Am I being honest with myself about what's really going on inside?' And realize that you are in fact living purity within these simple points of your honesty and realness with yourself. You'll find that you're a lot more 'pure' than you give yourself credit for. And that you've truly been honoring this word in your life and existence. Like I said, it's been a point of 'strength' within you. Something you always return to as a principle that you stand and live by. Something that you do actually KNOW is the real you.

This color is sort of showing 'who you are at the end of the day'. Which is like a 'tranquility'. A very very deep sense of tranquility. A 'peacefulness' even. So peaceful and tranquil you could hear a pin drop. An eternal silence. It's that space where nothing exists, other than breath. Where it's just you and yourself. But in a way that is extremely peaceful. Where you are completely content.

And, even though there is 'no movement', at the same time there is much movement. Sort of like how water moves. In and as itself, water is actually very still and quiet and 'eternal', but at the same time it is constantly moving, in a constant self-expression. There is a contentment and an enjoyment about water.

Water shows us what it really means to express ourselves. To have no movement yet constant movement at the same time. For there to be 'nothingness', yet absolute contentment. It's the 'life within the dark'. A darkness that is actually comforting, and inviting and fulfilling. That reminds you of yourself and gives you back to yourself.

A darkness wherein you find a gratefulness that you get to 'finally' be alone with you. That the noise of the world stops and you can hear yourself. You can connect with yourself. You find yourself again after being lost for a long time. It's a darkness that you don't need to fear, and where fear doesn't even exist. It's like meeting a long lost friend again, and you meet each other with love and appreciation.

It's a 'happy' kind of black color lol, if that's a thing. A true 'happiness'. One born from being genuinely yourself. From getting to that place where you meet yourself - the most 'real' you that exists inside you. The place where there's nothing but just you and yourself. And you go 'ah, there you are. How long it's been, friend!'

There is just nothing else moving. No feelings, or emotions, or thoughts. No reactions. So you can't but meet yourself on that equal level, as a 'friend'. You stand before you simply as you are and see yourself simply as you are. And you can finally breathe. And appreciate that there are no more illusions, and that you're seeing reality clearly and directly. That you know exactly who you are, and everything is as it seems. That's equality and oneness.