This is the color of 'potential'. Of moving and going 'beyond' your usual and familiar experiences and sense of 'self'. Seeing things in different ways and being different. Saying goodbye to the familiar and opening the doors for change. Stepping into the unpredictable and into new expressions and yet undefined ways of being.

And, since you can't predict any of it yet, all you have is the moment. As in, you can't rely on any of your usual assessments or estimates of what may be a right or wrong decision. All you have is your 'instinct' in the moment so to speak. Your pure self-expression in the moment, to guide you. Where you create the 'new you' as you trust yourself in the steps that you take.

It's like the color of 'intuition'. Of not thinking about where you're going or what you're doing, but more trusting the body and trusting the 'un-known' and the 'un-defined'. And so allowing the expression of the body as you to come through. Where there exists no thoughts and where you can't necessarily think about things to make sure you're 'on the right track'. You just sort of have to 'go with the flow' of what comes up and what 'feels right' in a way. Kind of trusting that you 'already know' and therefore don't need to think about anything. You just need to express yourself.

I suppose there isn't a 'right' or a 'wrong', there's just 'expression'. And you just need to trust that your expression is always right. That you are an expression of life and that how life expresses itself through you is how it should be.

And that, if anything, you SHOULD try things 'just for the hell of it'. To break through the limitations of what's apparently right and wrong and good and bad. And learn to honor your expression. Exploring what 'life' is that wants to express itself through and as you.

This is an interesting color in that it is at once a very 'laid back', 'happy', 'comfortable' and 'letting go' kind of color, as well as at the same time a very 'serious' color. As in it's serious about creating that 'happiness', 'laid back-ness', 'comfortability' and 'letting go'. Serious about creating something 'different' and 'new', and stepping out of the preprogrammed ways of perceiving things.

Lol it's like 'happiness', but actually REAL happiness, as something that is the result of what you CREATE. Like an actual process of ENSURING that happiness is something that's real. It's quite interesting and super cool. Like an exploration and pioneering into what happiness would mean in real life. As a physical creation. Or rather perhaps what it means to 'pursue happiness' but in a way that is actually down-to-earth and in consideration of all life. NOT as any experience or anything defined by the mind in any way whatsoever.

What does it mean to be deliriously happy lol but not as an experience, but as a real, genuine expression and living of yourself. It's like you're letting the sunshine in your life and letting the sun shine in, where you used to see just darkness, and didn't even dare to consider that sunshine could be part of your life. That you could be 'happy'.

But it's also because of that 'darkness' that you've experienced for most of your life, that you will not be deceived by any illusions of 'happiness', and that you are determined to make sure that any happiness you create, is REAL. Cause you know that the 'happiness' in the mind isn't real, and you WILL NOT allow yourself to be deceived. And in a way this makes you the perfect person to walk this process of figuring out what 'happiness' can be for real.

This color feels very 'mature'. Also sort of a 'new' part of you opening up. A deep enjoyment in your own body. And a deep nurturing, supportive, caring and loving relationship with it. In the sense of almost the kind of relationship that you'd create with a partner. A relationship of 'familiarity', bonding, intimacy and connection. As though your body is becoming an 'old friend' that you think very fondly of and feel very comfortable with. And the both of you can just laugh and sort of be on each other's level, having that connection of mutual understanding and relatability.

You know when you've got this connection with someone that goes deeper than a sibling, or a partner or a friend even. I'd even say that connection very very rarely exists between people in this world. Where it's like you can TOTALLY relax, hold nothing back and totally be yourself. Where you're not judged in any way and you're allowed to express who you are. So it's this deep, deep point of self-acceptance. An acceptance of yourself on a very deep level.

And with that, a sinking into your body and yourself that takes place. Becoming your own best friend, because you know that nobody understands you better than you. And also that you are the only one that you can really communicate with about those points that you're looking at and working with.

It's this color/expression that's really going to assist and support you within walking that process of 'pursuing happiness'. That point of it being just you and yourself, like 'Thelma and Louise', having your own back. Not having to answer to anybody, other than you.

But something about this color is also this point of resistance to being shown your 'flaws' and so you kind of 'hide' in yourself. Hiding 'where no one can hurt you' with the 'pain' of seeing things about yourself. Because you just have a tendency of being very judgmental of yourself, so anything that you would see, you'd just judge yourself for. So if you can just wipe the 'muddiness' of self-judgment out of your eyes, it'll support you greatly with creating and building what it is that you want to create/build. Cause the 'mud' as your self-judgments does hold you back, so it's to pull yourself out of it and kind of realize that the only one hurting you, is you.

I'd say this would be a color that you wouldn't really want to see lol. Just a part of you that you wouldn't necessarily like to 'face'. But perhaps in the spirit of 'facing mistakes without reacting' lol this one came up.

This color is in a way the color of sort of looking at a concrete wall and just not seeing anything other than that wall. Being very 'closed', as in 'closed off', or 'walled off', from reality. And it's not necessarily cause you don't 'want' to see reality. It's more just that you 'can't'. That there's 'something' blocking you.

And I mean yes at the same time it is actually that you don't 'want' to see lol. But you don't necessarily see that you don't want to see. Cause it's just one of those things that you do, or rather one of those 'decisions' you've made when you were younger, and are still making, just on a level that you are now no longer aware of. A decision of 'I'm not going to see', as a way of 'protecting' yourself. 'Shielding' yourself from reality. And specifically from certain experiences that made you feel bad about yourself. So it's like a decision of 'if I don't see anything of reality, then I also don't see anything of myself, and then I also won't be faced with anything that's going to make me feel bad'.

Cause I guess you've got some memories of people making you feel really bad about yourself and you kind of decided that you just don't want to feel that way about yourself - understandably so - and that you're therefore going to cut yourself off from a part of reality having to do with 'other people' and in a way with 'considering' other people.

So within this it's almost like you are deliberately not letting yourself 'see', cause in a way you also don't want to. It's almost like a point of not wanting to have anything to do with people because of the hurt you feel they've caused you. So why would you even want to see them. So you've deliberately put that concrete wall there as your way of 'spiting' people. Your way of keeping your distance and turning your back. Because 'people deserve it'. Cause people are just going to be hurtful. So really, why should you 'consider' them. It's kind of like that expression "building a wall around your heart". Cause you've realized or decided long ago that people are just going to hurt you any chance they get and that you need to sort of 'keep them out'

So now you're like in conflict with this 'wall', and fighting it, when you actually just need to 'let go' and stop deliberately putting it up. And it's certainly one of the toughest things to do, letting go of that 'hurt' and anger and sort of allowing yourself to be 'open' again. Cause it feels like that wall is there to protect you. Like it's the only protection that you can give yourself. The only point of 'power' that you have. The only thing that's 'yours'.

So it's to just 'soften up' a little, and let that concrete wall dissolve, and work on being more 'forgiving'. To see more of yourself in others and realize they need forgiveness just like you do. That mistakes have been made and that really what we need is to go 'oops, oh well' and move on ;)